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So I know that I haven't really talked about IVF that much lately, so I just wanted to give you all a little update and tell you a little about my experience. And also thank you guys for your continuing support! It means so much to me that anyone reads my blog and that you guys have shown me so much support through this challenging time in my life. Thank you from the bottom of my heart! It means so much more than you know.
Ok, so my overall experience with IVF was very positive. I was really really scared to do IVF but I must say that it was not as bad as I thought it would be and if nothing else comes of this it has made me realize that I am much stronger than I ever gave myself credit for. And Matt and I are stronger as a couple than we have ever been. If we made it through this we can make it through anything.
It was very challenging and overwhelming at times. There are so many things to think about and so many things that can go wrong. But I also learned to just let go and realize that this is out of my control. I had to really trust that my doctors and nurses knew what they were doing, which for me was very hard because I am a control freak and a hypochondriac. As I said before my biggest fear was getting hyper stimulated and that did not happen! Thank God. Although, there were times when I was sure it was going to happen. My estrogen went super high from all of the stimulation shots so I was sure I was going to get hyper stim but I didn't and it seems my doctor knew what he was talking about after all!
It was scary and exhausting and a bit of an emotional roller coaster. So many things are happening to your body and for someone like me who worries a lot, that was tough. Luckily, I had the best doctor and nurses and they knew my concerns so they monitored me very closely. So much so that I had to go to the doctor every single day. That got a little old and I started to feel like a lab rat getting poked and prodded all of the time. But I was thankful to have such good care. The shots were not fun at all but luckily for me Matt gave me every single shot. I don't think I could have done it to myself. The hormones made me a little crazy and moody at times. But it wasn't as bad as I thought.
Looking back on our experience I realize that God has a plan. And that God was in control of this whole process and I truly believe that he is watching over me and that is why we had such a positive experience and all the things I was worried about happening to me didn't happen. I am so thankful for that!
We are in a bit of a waiting period now. But no matter what the outcome, I am so happy I decided to move forward and do IVF. It has made me a better and stronger person than I was before. I always considered myself such a wimp but after this I must say I am much tougher than I thought. My family is no longer allowed to call me a wimp!
Thank you all so much for reading!